Tuesday, November 29, 2005
How ironic..
Its funny how life can be. There were moments of gold and flashes of lights and then it left with emptiness and suddenly the ray of lights turn to darkness and storm. *sigh* Its funny juz because of small misunderstanding it mark the turning point of a friendship. I was perturbed at first but as time goes by, I let nature takes its course. Afterall, what good am I to beg for a friendship that doesn't deserve for me in it. Infact I feel so stupid that I tried. Maybe yes, a jester that need attention but not when I felt I was left out when things doesn't go their way.
Its funny when there were times two friends went out for lunch together, enjoyed their train ride back home and that juz left with yesteryears. I think its best to leave things the way it is even its beyond my will. If the other party is happy with their life now, why bother to make things difficult for both of us.
ps: dear diary, I feel better after supressing my heartaches and I believe there's always a silver lining in the cloud. For eg when I wasn't feeling well these two days, I'm thankful that there were friends who bother to ask how am I covering. At least their sms-s bringhten up my day even though I was feeling down. A true friend smile and cry with you sheltering you tru' rain or shine. At least, I've learnt my lesson now... Never too indulge in friendship coz you'll end up hurting yourself or others.
"Ya Allah, berilah ku kekuatan semoga aku dapat mengharungi segala ujianMu dan lindungilah aku dari segala godaan dan malapetaka. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yg Maha Pengasih dan Mengetahui. Amin"
I did a quiz on 'How many people Hate Me'
and here's my result:
You're So Lovable!
No one hate you - Why did you even take this? you know no one hates you... lol You're polite to everyone - you don't try to cause trouble w/ anyone - You have a couple best friends who love you and the other people who you just talk w/ or don't say anything to have absolutely nothing against you =) Actually - I'd probably love you too... lol
How Many People Hate You?
*Yeah right! Nway I dun care how many pple hate me, but its juz for the fun of it. *
Monday, November 28, 2005
Closing and dats it..
Its nearly over. I apologise to those whom I missed out visiting.. esp to all my relatives. This 'unhelpful' work schedule had created lots of chaos in my life.
tsk tsk *sigh* Nway.. I noe I shldnt have complain too much after all I'm happy this way. Thks a lot dear for looking after the kids well. Though there are times I vent my stress and anger on you, all I was getting back was juz a smile. Sorry for everything. I noe I couldn't live without you and of coz the gals too!*hugs*
I wasn't feeling well since yesterday after coming back from my friend's open house. What making it worse was that, I had that chronic attack again. Hubby had been massaging my head for almost the whole nite! Kesian dia...
Its another severe migraine that follow up with several vomitting. Yucks! I hate feeling this way. My head is spinning and I juz feel like sleeping all day. Draw down the blind, cover the room as dark as possible...as long as there weren't any sunlight beam. Yeah.. that bad! Went to see a doctor this morning and was prescribed four kinds of medication juz to shoo off the migraine away. Dr Lucienne said that I should learn how to cope with my stress since this is my first time having such a working hours compared to my previous one. She even reiterate to me the importance of exercising since my health is regressive lately. So here I am at home resting for 2 days. Nvr in ma life I had a 2 days mc except the one I was landed in A&E. Well,I better tuck in early then..
Hopefully I can return back to work with rejuvenation and sunny smiles.
InsyaAllah..
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Syawal Datang Lagi
